What was your biggest takeaway as a patient at Valley Hope that has informed your recovery journey?
I’m not a horrible person, and I’m not alone.
I was at PVH in October of 2017 too. Back then, I still had it in my mind that this was my choice and it was my fault. After some of the classes that explained what alcohol does to our body and mind, I had a much better idea of what this illness is all about. I didn’t choose this. I am a good person who has an illness that is treatable daily.
What staff member most influenced your treatment stay?
I can’t choose just one. Tammy was my counselor, and she just has the sweetest, most precious soul. I could tell she actually cared about me as a person.
Dale was my chaplain. After suffering from religious trauma as a child, one of my biggest fears was being forced into what I saw as “the religious part of it”. I can’t tell you how thankful I am that I got Dale. He was 100% supportive of me having my own beliefs. He even helped me find connections to Native lead organizations in the Denver area.
I wish I could remember the name of the counselor who loved rock music. Her classes were so much fun, and I really loved her no nonsense attitude. She was just so real.
The kitchen staff - absolutely stellar!
What is life like today in recovery?
I finally love me! My first attempt at sobriety in 2017 was for other people. This time, my recovery is for myself. I have finally forgiven myself for the choices I made during my body and mind reacting to trauma. No longer am I comparing myself to others. My dreams really are coming true. I am accomplishing things in my life that I truly only thought were dreams. I have a calmness and acceptance in my soul for this life that I never thought possible. I wish I could share this feeling with everyone.
What piece of advice would you share with others seeking recovery?
Stop blaming yourself. I believe the key to absolutely everything is how you feel about yourself, and how you feel about yourself should not be in the hands of others. Also, don’t expect everything to fix itself as soon as you stop drinking or using. That takes time. Be thankful that you have time, because this thing will kill us.
People would say things like “be in the moment” and “one day at a time” and that never made any sense to me. I can honestly say that I’ve learned how to do those things today.
In the first six months of sobriety I have restored my relationships with my family and friends, fallen in love with my sober partner, thrived in my career and gotten plugged back in with communities I enjoyed before my addiction.
My passion for reading has turned into a wonderful opportunity of reading for a network that helps others. I am now two years into my volunteer work and absolutely love it!
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